i will be your lightning, if you will be my rod

excerpts from a conversation:

i see things like bags drifting, and leaves and trees and sidewalks all as little moments
like little gifts
my drama teacher in high school used to say when random things happened on stage it’s like a gift
because you have this completely random moment to create something off the top of your head
kind of like freestyling
but i think you can learn to appreciate little moments
that’s what i try to get people to think about when they see my work
so it’s like a completely reflection of how i think, in visual form
that’s pretty rad
if it works

i like music loud, it’s like i’m inside of it
or it’s inside my head just making all of its sounds
and everything goes quiet again, except the music
for some reason i want to say it’s like flying... but i’m not sure why

i feel like i study people a lot... and my art work doesn’t generally deal with that, and i’m not really sure
maybe it’s that fear of putting something down on paper... and that i censor my art projects or something... if that makes sense

sometimes i see a keyboard in my head and i type on it
or i say things, or think them and then type them
it’s like an exercise or something
but my mind is always busy like that
doing something...
clicking away

and
when we’re sitting here
it’s like i’m completely at peace
all i can feel is each moment
and i’m calm
and there isn’t shit constantly running through my head
noises i can never quiet
and in those moments i’m still

to respond to that, i’m not sure what i would say, except that you said that very beautifully and it sounds like lyrics. its very true and honest and just because i don’t have a response to it, doens’t mean it didn’t hit me. i sort of internalized what you said, but didn’t verbalize my appreciation for it. nor do i have a response like well that makes me think this.
“all i can feel is each moment” that is beautiful. sometimes i think you can do that more than i do. i often watch what’s happening, but analyze it or try to keep track of what’s been said or something. i’m not in the moment a lot. and even with you i stay outside it sometimes i think. if i think about that, which most times i don’t. it’s scary to think about what you’re thinking about. to bring to consciousness the thoughts as you’re thinking them, because then it’s like you’re not being yourself, you’re watching yourself.

i don’t feel that or experience those moments so i can’t relate or something. or you have some super power that i don’t understand. this hyper-sensitive ability to photograph moments as they’re happening. i don’t know why. but the moments are there and i just subconsciously or want to ignore them. or push them away.

if i do nothing else in my life, i would just like to inspire others
to feel
and to do good things
like dance
but you should try it some time
living right now, that is
or just completely opening yourself up to what is going on around you and soaking it in
and feeling it purely